I’m going to start off by saying this is probably the most self-centered thing I’ve ever written. This post is basically me going “OMG my year was PERFECT,” when I know 99% of people had a rubbish year. Nonetheless, I wanted to talk about my positive experiences. These experiences just happened to occur in a year deemed one of the worst in history… So, on a personal level, here’s why 2016 was one of the best years of my life:
- Happiness: For a good few years – probably since I started high school – I’d been stuck in a pretty negative rut. Just like every other relatable person, I hated school, homework, and exams. Most days, I dreaded getting out of bed in the morning. Fortunately, with the help of some amazing people, I managed to change my outlook on life this year (god that sounds melodramatic). In general, I look back on 2016 and remember feeling happy and optimistic rather than tired and stressed out. Of course there were some bad moments too, but overall 2016 is a happy memory for me.
- Social Anxiety: Even though I was only diagnosed in 2015, I’ve had social anxiety for as long as I can remember. Whilst my anxiety didn’t go away this year, it was the first time I’ve ever felt so in control of it. It was the first year I consciously put myself in situations I knew would give me anxiety. That might sound a bit weird, but I finally realised these experiences would benefit me in the long run. Because I’ve been doing this for a while now, many situations that scared me months ago don’t bother me so much anymore – which is amazing, right? Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I think I’ve done pretty well!
- Being Myself (cringe): This year, I started to realise whatever I do, wear, or say, people might judge me for it or make comments. That’s just what people do. People might comment on me dressing a certain way, listening to a particular band, not knowing an artist, or running a blog (lol). At the end of the day, though, I have to live my life. Don’t get me wrong, this is DEFINITELY something I’m still working on. However, I feel like I’ve made a lot of progress in 2016.
- Leaving School: Let me start by saying I was extremely lucky to receive the education I did. However, I’m not going to lie, I didn’t enjoy school very much. My exam stress and social anxiety were just too much for me at the time. Having said this, at the start of 2016, I began managing school a little better. It probably helped that I knew I was leaving in a few months’ time… In 2016 I also decided to take a gap year. This was the BEST decision I’ve made in a long time. Right now, I almost feel like I’m seeing my life in a completely different way. At the end of the day, I’m getting a year out of doing any more exams which is probably why I’m so happy.
Basically, 2016 was the year I started feeling excited to live my life again. If anyone reading this had a good year, please tell me about it in the comments as I’d genuinely love to know. Alternatively, if you had a terrible year, feel free to tell me about that instead.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE 🙂
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